I have been using EFT on all of these thoughts and feelings I’ve been having about Rob, as often as I can, and as soon as the feeling has been coming up. I am feeling much better overall, and even had some moments of Positive Expectation (whatever that is on the Emotional Guidance scale). It lasted for a while before the old feelings came back but wow, what a difference. I felt great. I still do. I have even stopped writing here to tap on fears cropping up, and will do before I settle in to sleep.
I’m not feeling any divine inspiration yet, but it will come very soon. My dreams lately have been feeling like I am squeezing through tunnels made of stone, or finding my way through partly collapsed buildings. I am also seeing the number 5, and lots upon lots of references to Dutch things (Rob is Dutch). And in places I’m not supposed to or expecting to see them. Dutch chocolate ice cream just about the tubs of vanilla when I went grocery shopping. Usernames having the word “Dutch” in them. Thinking about that Dutch client on Upwork from a couple weeks ago when I applied. Lovely oil paintings advertised on imgur featuring space themed things that I suddenly came across via imgur. It feels exciting. Like there is a large portal of possibilities opening at my feet and it is there, golden, swirling. Like some beautiful nebula of fairy dust and dreams. I want this feeling to continue.
I can’t think of anything else to add, so I will close this here with a picture of a nebula: https://i.ytimg.com/vi/qVgADgmtWzE/maxresdefault.jpg
Goodnight!
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